Worth

You asked your father to take the cup, he knew you were strong enough to keep it. You had it in you to bear the shame, the consequences that instead bore my name. Were you thinking of me at the insance a kiss was placed on your cheek? Were you really dreaming of the lowly and the meek?When you were led away in the darkness of night, did you see my face? I am sorry that for me you had to be a disgrace. As the whip slashed your back, and you winced in seizing pain... you chose to keep your head high. I read the story and imagine the sceen... but time after time I just cant help from wondering why. Why did you do it for me? You limped to the cross, bloody and weak. You were swollen and weary yet the scorners urged you to leap. I imagine you thought about leaving and letting it all go, that you played with the idea of quitting. But you... you knew you could not. You knew that it had to be his plan, not yours. You knew that you had to do it for this girl. I am valuable enough. Although I am a sinner, a loser, a confused little girl you hung facing the crowd seeing much more. You looked into my life at all the things I could be, you probably closed your eyes and thought of me. Just me. You took the sins of my life and of every other, you bore them upon yourself and simply took it... because of me. With your last breath, I believe that you were thinking of me.
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I have value because I am HIS. In his infinate wisdom, Christ spent his last days on earth thinking of me. He spent them just as specifically thinking about Sharell, and of my neice Ellanor and President Bush and Hannah Montana. But I dont believe that he saw a "sea of faces", I believed that he visualized me personally... and you. That is how he is. His thoughts are higher than our thoughts, and that is that.

I can not think less of myself becuase he did not. It does not matter what the world thinks or what other people say... becuase I know that the God of the universe sent his son, to die for me. That is all I need to know.

Other Lovers

So I am really tired of the name : Hannah Montana. I am tired of seeing her face and hearing the spoken syllables of her name. I am not jealous of her, I am sad for her.

I am tried of being told that "shes ok" and that "shes not that big of a deal." I am tired of being told that she is not having a negative influence on the next generation. She, herself I believe is not a bad person. I believe that she is who she says she is and that she is trying to be pure and to control herself, but the fact of the matter is that Hollywood plays up even the innocent and makes the ignorant stumble.

I am tired of hearing little girls sing her songs more than Jesus songs. It just breaks my heart because the enemy is using an innocent victom to steal the attention of thousands, to capture the hearts of little girls. These little girls are givng their hearts to other lovers because they dont feel the real lover calling them. She may not be singing about sex or immoral things, but she is becoming an idol without wanting to be.

I am saddned and frusterated. Hopefully.... not the end of the story.